i can not go back
One step, two steps, three steps, and all the steps we take are irreversible, you can always walk backwards, but the steps are still different, meaning you can't really go back after you do something. That is where we are supposed to be careful, everything in life is irreversible, so we better think twice and be smart about what we want or not want to do. Do not let anyone defines you, do not let any number defines you. Love you the way you are and when you start loving yourself, you can now start loving others.